I saw a sign today that read, “repeat after me: I don’t want what doesn’t want me.” I just stared at that sign for a few minutes, my mind flashing back to all the times where I did exactly that. All the years of painful regret that I spent chasing rainbows that really just turned out to be storm clouds, pulling me into the cyclone, twisting me into a world of hurt. (more…)
They say the eyes are the window to one’s soul. Which is a good thing I guess since that’s the only thing we have all gotten a glimpse of over the past few months. Fearful, bright eyes widening at the sight of you passing them in the supermarket, crossing their path in an airport bathroom, or side stepping them on the sidewalk. And then it’s gone. The moment of eye contact is suddenly gone as the other person quickly looks down, intentionally planning their path to get as far away from YOU as possible. The path to safety. The path away from fear. The path away from uncertainty. (more…)
“It’s the only way to really find someone…” “ I met my husband on Tinder, he owns a Tesla, brought to life a startup tech company at the age of fifteen, and he is CPR certified.” “We swiped right to finding love.” “It really ISN’T just for hookups.”
We have all heard them. All of the glorious reviews of dating apps that lead unsuspecting young minds to the land of online dating in hopes of meeting their own elusive unicorn of a partner. But does it really work? That is the million dollar question that we all need answered.
I thought for a while that forever had found me. He was the first person that I ever loved. He could stop a heartbeat with his smile. He wore soccer sweatshirts and loved music. And he loved me. For awhile. I have been told that I am a hopeless romantic and I suppose in some ways that is true, but I wasn’t until him. Until I collapsed in a pile of freshly fallen snow, laughing so hard that my ribs hurt, trying to understand what the new foreign feeling was that was fluttering in my chest. Love happened to me slowly, and then all at once. Like the light sprinkle of snow that suddenly seemed to turn the whole world white. (more…)
“I believe in Fairytales and dreamer’s dreams like bedsheet sails, and I believe in Peter Pan, and miracles anything I can to get by, and fireflies.” I used to listen to this song Fireflies by Faith Hill on repeat. It was the mantra of my life, this idea that miracles could happen (they can by the way), and life was just one big fairytale. All I had to do was wait for Prince Charming to ride up on a White Horse to sweep me off my feet and whisk me off to some castle to make all my worries fade away. And that was what I believed, wholeheartedly, for many years… but now it’s time to call some BS. (more…)
“You are Worth More than Second Thoughts and Maybes”. At what point in a girl’s life does she stop believing that? I don’t know the answer to that question, because somewhere along the way I stopped believing it myself. (more…)